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Rights Versus Priveleges

May 21, 2017

I’ve decided to comment on everything that has been going on since the election back in November of 2016.

I find it funny that people who disagree with the election results now literally border on the edge of insanity. Never have I seen people go to the extreme that I have seen occur both in the print media and legacy tv news.

You have college students who never before participated in a presidential election and are literally emotionally upset that their candidate after listening to the media tell them 24/7 every day that their candidate will in in a landslide, it didn’t happen. They are taking to social media threatening to kill themselves if election results are not overturned in their favor.

Then you have both the print media and their owners and the legacy tv talking heads and the class of politicians who deem themselves to be our betters, bordering on treason with what they are doing as well.

Never before has an elected president been attacked and viciously harassed and interfered with in establishing his administration and setting his agenda as this president has been, did I vote for him no I didn’t, but I am accepting the election results.

What’s rights does a person have either private or public, are not priveleges but there are a few who see those rights as their privelegs.

Rights:
Freedom of speech: there are some limits on free speech.

Freedom to travel: you are only limited by your desire and imagination.

Freedom of association: because of the PC culture, you are attacked if you think differently than liberals and progressives.

Freedom to live where you want: this goes with freedom to travel, but there are those who feel its their right to enforce restrictions against those who disagree with them.

Freedom to drive: this is a freedom but the license to drive is a privilege only its not a right.

Back in 2015 the print media and the legacy tv news felt it was their right and privilege to literally destroy an announced candidate for president they disagreed with, so they pulled out all the stops that would have caved a pedigree GOP candidate for president or any other elected office.

They pulled out of storage a video of the candidate saying what he could do if he wanted to because he was a star, did he say he did those things, no he only spoke of an action not taken. Was it crude, yes it was but goes no where near Anthony Weiner did with a teenage girl.

Since Trump was sworn in as President there has been a constant 24/7 daily barrage by both the print media and the legacy tv news to try and take down President Trump, this a first that the 4th estate has been so open in its hatred of a President. But then again responsible journalism was tossed out during the 1990’s and its never been seen again.

What the media in general is now doing actually borders on treason with the constant printing and revealing confidential meetings between the president and the foreign dignitaries visiting the White House. This very same media in general gave both Obama and Hillary a complete pass on whatever they did legally or illegally.

The media in general has given up all pretense on being balanced in its delivering of the news, both the writers and the talking heads on tv show their utter disdain for President Trump in their words and actions. President Trump calls them fake news and it does fit the bill to a T. The news in general they give rarely is based on truth but their privately held beliefs.

Trump could if he wanted to due to the treason and espionage act, could shut down the tv broadcasters nationwide. Because they have leaked information that they shouldn’t have in the first place. They are working hand in hand with political appointees and elected democrats and rhinos in taking down a sitting president by any means even a coup.

It’s time for the average American citizen to understand that the Founding Fathers wanted a citizen congress and the president represent the nation as its sole leader. We have now what I call a political class that see them as being privileged and are better than the average citizen. They see themselves as being above the law, they see their constituents as being stupid animals that need to be told how to think.

The latest example is shoddy journalism is the recent firing of former FBI chief Comey, did President Trump stop any investigation no he hasn’t he is just replacing a man who helped Obama thwart any investigation into actions by Obama or Hillary.

The head of the FBI serves at the pleasure of the President, for the FBI is an administration agency, its not operated by congress or by the Supreme Court.

I watched actual tv for the first time since 2002, I lasted 30 minutes when I realized that, I have not missed out on anything at all. When I use to watch tv and the news, I became despondent on this nations future, just from watching the tv news.

By not watching the news or listening to the radio much, I have a better view and outloook for this nation. I have a right to my views and outlook but according to the talking heads and the printed media, my rights are archaic and I should be killed off because of them.

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E.E.O.C.

April 28, 2016

It is time for the EEOC to take the leap forward that the democrats have been complaining about for the past 100 years about equality in the work place.  It is time for the EEOC to do away with quotas in every way and form and function.

The EEOC can do something totally mind boggling that would make every liberal head spin by requiring all employers public and private by redoing the employment process that is currently used for one thing called quotas in the work place.

Its time to end the use of full names required on applications or resumes and require last names only.  It’s time to get rid of gender identity identification on applications.  It’s time to rid the application process of race related identification as well.

its time that applications should have at the top of every.  Application the following statement: The best qualified applicant will be selected for the job posted.

The application and resume should only have the following: first initial and last name only, instead of full name which will identify the applicants gender.

Remove the gender identity boxes

Remove race identifying on the application.

Remove age as well unless it is a job requirement of OSHA

Using the new system would require the employers to select which applicatants based on the qualifications in the resume and interview accordingly and have no preset notions of each applicant.

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THE REAL MESS

August 10, 2011

What many people do not know is the real history of the problems we are having today and it was signed into law by jimmy (peanut farmer) carter in 1977 here’s the first link and on the right side is a map that the law was based out that is how the term red lining was created it was showing banks where the safe loans could be repaid and the red areas were showing much riskier areas.

Thus created the first banking crisis back in the late 1980’s the S&L’s debacle the community activists boycotted and attacked the S&L’s banks to charge them with red lining and deceit and deceptive loan process.  Because the S&L’s banks were receiving insurance money from the FDIC  that made the banks liable if they were ever sued in court.

Timeline of the Housing Crisis

 
These are the leading culprits who actually caused the subprime

mortgage collapse which then caused the current worldwide deep recession

1. Jimmy Carter pushed for and signed into law the
Community Reinvestment Act which forced banks to
lower their standards so that previously unqualified
people could get a mortgage.

2. Bill Clinton then doubled-down on the Community Reinvestment
Act and greatly lowered mortgage standards to
allow a lot more unqualified borrowers to get loans.

3. Bill Clinton’s Attorney General, Janet Reno, then intimidated
banks with threats of legal action if they
did not give loans to unqualified borrowers who
would not have the income to pay the loans back.

4. A member of the Clinton administration, Franklin Raines
was then put in charge of Fannie Mae by Bill Clinton. Fannie
Mae bought up a majority of the bad loans made by
banks to unqualified borrowers. Raines then falsified Fannie
Mae financial reports so he could collect bonuses
which totaled over $90 million for 5 years.

5. Senator Chris Dodd, head of the Senatorial Financial
Committee, suppressed efforts by President
George W. Bush and congressional Republicans to
rein in the corruption at Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac.
He got a very favorable loan by a bank associated
with Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac. He got large political
campaign contributions from Fannie Mae and
Freddie Mac.

6. Barney Frank, head of the House of Representatives
Banking Committee, also suppressed efforts by President
George W. Bush and Congressional Republicans to
investigate corruption at Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac.

7. Barack Obama, while he was an attorney, filed lawsuits
against banks on behalf of ACORN in order to
force banks to give loans to people who could not afford
to pay them back. Obama, while he was a U.S.
Senator, also suppressed efforts by President George
W. Bush and Republican Congressmen to investigate
and rein in Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac.

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FREEDOM

July 4, 2007

I started my road to freedom on may 18, 2007th, that was the day I started working for my current company and they have me living on the road going from state to state. This has been quite fascinating and a stark change of state of mind for myself, I no longer had to walk on egg shells around my wife, and I could relax and since then. A lot has occurred that has made me realize the stress that I was under trying to see to her needs 24/7 day in and day out I no longer care about what she does even though I care, and love her dearly.

I have come to realize that we didn’t have a marriage but a co habitation living arrangement with the marriage document which in all was a sham on her part because she never once acted like she was married and tried very hard to keep me separate from her life, she didn’t want to have one checking account she stressed that we keep out monies in separate checking accounts, not once would she confide in what she wanted out of life in general, but make constant criticism of what i wasn’t doing right and mainly wrong. The latest is she sent an email that demanding that I no longer have contact with friends that I have made and contact with her side of the family.

Her parents don’t realize that she has been going down hill with the depression, she has been become quite adept at lying and deception. She has tried to make them believe that it is what I had done that made her decision to get a divorce, but I had been contemplating in leaving her and saying please get the divorce I cant stand being in this charade of a marriage because its more of a living arrangement to benefit her and only her. I feel hurt and abused emotionally and mentally, but the best thing that I can do is get the annulment from the church so that basically the marriage never truly was a marriage, but more of room mates living together she made it plain that we would literally never sleep in the same bed even after getting married, to me that isn’t a marriage at all. I tried to have her attend my side of the family functions but she made every attempt never to attend one function and if she did it was always that she became ill, I stopped making excuses for her and just said it laura what can I say. Her excuses were real flimsy at best but my family still welcomed her into the family no matter what.

It will soon be two months that I have been living on the road and the accusations by her have now started thank heavens I am not even in the same state as her, since we have separated I have been to our place to pick up my 3 suit cases, and garment bag, then to pick of some meds for my neck and therapy, and the final time to drop off a laptop that my oldest daughter will be picking up. and all three times I had called to inform her that i would be stopping by and to either pick stuff up or to drop something off, and I never stayed for more than 10 minutes at most. The further away from her I feel safer mentally and emotionally.

I have limited contact with her and she doesn’t know where I am at and I feel that it is in my best interest that she doesn’t know. I now wake up feeling that I have slept and not on edge the moment I wake because I never who I would wake up to each morning lately its been not the lady that I thought I had married but somebody else and a complete stranger filled with hatred because she wont accept responsibility for her actions, she always tries to make it so that she is and will always be the victim at all costs even if it means to do so will harm others.

Again i hope that her family recognizes the fact that the depression has gotten worse not better and that she needs a therapist that will see that she puts on a great act so that it will always be that she is the innocent bystander. I have my freedom by living on the road and no walking on egg shells for me an I feel relieved since then, I am calm not wondering what will set her off or that i have to be there for when she starts crying because of some alleged harm has befallen her. The relief is mind boggling to me, at first I thought that I wouldn’t know what to do, but I actually am relieved and I go for walks, work out, chat with normal people that I have to take care of emotionally. it feels like 500 lbs have fallen off my back.

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Depression ruins a Marriage

May 13, 2007

hydrangeas.jpgMy life has been turned upside down(her depression) by my wife of eight years for some reason she has felt that I have been trying to change her which if far from it, no matter what she wanted to do I supported her in what ever endeavour she wanted to try and what job she wanted to do, I fully supported her no matter what but no she has decided that she no longer wishes to married because she is not sure who she is and wants a divorce I have waited patiently for her to decide when she wanted to become intimate again in our marriage, the past 6 years I can count on one hand the times that we have had any type of an intimate relationship.

I have told her that I will always love her no matter what and will do what she wants even though I know in my heart that it is the wrong step to take, in order for me to survive and to remain sane I have taken a job in another state because being so close to the lady that I love will be quite hard for me to handle so i felt that it was necessary to live and work in a another state. I have talked with her parents they are saddened to hear of her decision and i explained to them that it was not my decision but hers alone and that if she does change her mind i would come back to her in a heart beat.

dried_hydrangeas.jpgThere are two sides to every story, and I would rather her family be there for her because she needs the help and love of her family at this time. I dearly love her family and have enjoyed the interaction with them when I have been able to be there, and the closeness that I felt while being married to my wife, and wish to stay in contact with them because they made me feel welcome into their family, especially her brother who lives in Chicago and his wife and two kids, along with her parents who also live in near Chicago as well. They encouraged me to call them mom and dad after both of my parents had passed away, I will love them dearly for the love they have shown me while being married to their daughter.

While being married to their daughter who has shown me how live and love again after I had built a wall to keep from being hurt again, she helped me greatly in raising my daughters long distance and making sure that we gave both daughters an option and a safe place when ever they wanted to come down and live with us.

My wife has a huge love of Hydrangeas and she had made it her flowers of choice for our wedding, I will never regret marrying her at all, I love her with all my heart and will remain faithful to her no matter what because she is my soul mate and she is my heart, when she told me she wanted a divorce it was if my heart had been ripped out of me.

This may seem to be ramblings that are not in order but for me to live each day to be so close but unable to change her mind which I will not do because I would never force her to change her mind even if it is the wrong decision, but it is the one she has made, I will respect her wishes no matter what. I would rather that her family be mad at me than at her because she needs the love and help that they can give her while she tries to discover who she is instead of trying be what everybody wants her to be. In our 8 years of marriage, I never once thought of another female because my wife was my life and my heart and most importantly my best friend.

To her friends please be there for her because she is really unable to do what is necessary to keep her life in order, I cherish the fact that her friends welcomed me into their circle as one of them without judging me at all. I will always cherish the times spent with them on holidays and other times as well.

To her friend who lives in California I saw you as her twin sister because you both thought alike which at times was quite funny at times because you both even sounded alike on the phone, I ask that you be there for her even if just on the phone to talk with her.

Like I said there are two sides for every story I will keep mine to myself because of the love that I have for my wife, I would rather be the villain so that her family and friends will be there for her as that is what she needs the most at this time in her life, so that she will find who she is. For those who wish to ask me, please be there for her, she needs the love and support right now. It hurts to much to be in the same state as she lives in right now, knowing that I am still married to her but she doesn’t wish to stay married it is tearing me up inside but I would rather have her friends and family focus on her because she desperately needs the love and support as she battles her demons that are inside her mind. Read my 2nd post titled Freedom