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Net Neutrality The Fail

December 15, 2017

In 2015 the three FCC commissioners specifically selected by Obama stated that the Internet should be treated as a Utility, so the three sat down with the people from Google, FB, and Twitter and hammered out just how net neutrality would be applied and how it will work. Only problem was that it only affected companies that provided access to the internet such as verizon, comcast and AT&T as examples meaning they could not selectively slow down content. The Net Nuetrailty rules gave internet giant content providers the ability to decide what is considered free speech and what is deemed hate speech, the 2015 net nuetraility act was written with a huge influence by George Soros.

The past two years, I have seen content providers become the sole arbiters of what they deem is free speech and what is hate speech, my web blog was deemed hate speech because I freely give my opinions regardless who you are that will read my blogs, they are my opinions and nobody is forced to read them at all. FB enjoyed being the sole arbiter of free speech on their website, only problem was anyone who disagrees with FB’s political views is deemed a person with hate speech, their pages are blocked, suspended, and even canceled. YouTube is another content provider who extensively used net neutrality to block, defund and even cancel channels they deem not consistent with their political views, google is another content provider who did the same thing as FB, and YouTube.

The ruckus over ending net nuetrailty means that snowflakes and liberals can not silence those who disagree with their political views anymore, the way it was before 2015. What most liberals and snowflakes do not realize is that internet providers still slowed down you internet speed once you reached a certain level of data used, and it was perfectly legal to do so, because in the 2 year contracts people would agree to listed that the persons internet speed would be slowed down after using 10 gigs of data just as an example. Even telephone companies with non contract phones had the same detail as 2 year contracts. So in reality the only real thing about net nuetrailty was allowing left leaning corporations be the sole arbiters of what is deemed free speech and what they define as hate speech.

With the current FCC having three republican commissioners giving Obama’s net nuetrailty rules a total rebuke and handing oversight to the FTC, takes away the liberals and progressives the ability to control free speech. The internet has been around now for 28 years, prior to the net nuetrailty rules the internet ran perfectly without the governments heavy handed approach. When the internet took off in the 1990’s the Democratic Party wanted price controls over how much companies like AOL, compuserve, prodigy, and earthlink as examples could charge customers for internet access. My first year of having internet access my monthly charge was 70 a month for 100 hours of internet access each month. Today, I have a selection of tiers of internet speed and the prices reflect those speed levels. Either in January or February I will be getting gigabit internet access speed for 80 dollars a month, I am choosing the speed that best reflects my needs.

The internet has blossomed and exploded without any help or controls that the deomcratic Party feels is necessary, treating the internet as a utility gave the democrats the control over the internet they have so longed desired because it never discriminated who could access the internet, where as the democrats want to silience free speech unless you agree with their political views.

For 25 years the internet operated just fine without strict heavy handed government controls. For the past two years, the internet was under free speech attack if you disagreed with the content providers political views, such as disagreeing with abortion as just one example. Roe V Wade was a Supreme Court decision in the 1970’s but there was a demcocrat actually implying that without net neutrality a lady would not be able to look up where to get an abortion, surprise net nuetrailty boils down to who decides what is free speech and what they deem as hate speech.

Democrats and progressives literally hate the head FCC comissioner Ajit Pai, who with the other two FCC memebers wrote the rules repealing net nuetrailty and giving freedom back to the people who use the internet without fear of being labeled hate speech writer, homophobic, islamphobic as just a few examples. If you disagree with liberals, democrats and progressives, you are a unredeemable deplorable person.

Once again this blog is my opinion…….

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REP. OBERSTAR CONTINUES TO ENRICH HIMSELF!!

August 12, 2007

Mr. Oberstar continues to steal from the American taxpayers to enrich himself by taxing, do you see him or his Democratic party offering to cut their pay, or to actually do work other than find ways and senseless reason to gouge the american taxpayer. Mr. Oberstar’s immediate response to the bridge collapsing is to raise the gas tax, to fund the repairs of the roads and bridges but it would then be turned to other forms of transit and not for the roads or bridges.

Mr Oberstar looks like he is not suffering with his many years at the trough of the taxpayers back pocket. He will not consider cutting his own pay or cutting needless and senseless govt. spending instead he wishes along with the other democrats in his party to take away our rights and freedoms.

Isn’t it time for Mr. Oberstar to find a real job instead of living on the backs of the American taxpayer. He hasn’t had a real job in over 30 years, his main goal in life is to live in the life of luxury by taxing Americans so that he can live his life of comfort.

I would have given applause to him had he stated that until all roads and bridges in the United States were back up to safe standards, that he will propose a bill to cut all house members pay by 15 percent to help pay for the repair efforts, and that he will propose that the house cut their extravagant retirement benefits and take social security just like the average American taxpayer when they retire.

Mr. Oberstar’s real goal in congress is to remake the United States into a western form of Europe.

Mr. Oberstar please go out and get a real private job that doesn’t include living off the American taxpayer, its time you stop stealing the taxpayers monies and misspending it needlessly.

The conditions of the roadways and bridges can be laid squarely at feet of the Democrats in congress both the house and senate, for their failure to spend the taxpayers money the way it should be spent and not on earmarks and pork barrel spending. How many kickbacks is Mr. Oberstar receiving for all his time in congress. Mr. Oberstar please leave congress you do us all a disservice by staying in congress, you are a cancer on the American society please stop taking away our rights and freedoms.

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FREEDOM

July 4, 2007

I started my road to freedom on may 18, 2007th, that was the day I started working for my current company and they have me living on the road going from state to state. This has been quite fascinating and a stark change of state of mind for myself, I no longer had to walk on egg shells around my wife, and I could relax and since then. A lot has occurred that has made me realize the stress that I was under trying to see to her needs 24/7 day in and day out I no longer care about what she does even though I care, and love her dearly.

I have come to realize that we didn’t have a marriage but a co habitation living arrangement with the marriage document which in all was a sham on her part because she never once acted like she was married and tried very hard to keep me separate from her life, she didn’t want to have one checking account she stressed that we keep out monies in separate checking accounts, not once would she confide in what she wanted out of life in general, but make constant criticism of what i wasn’t doing right and mainly wrong. The latest is she sent an email that demanding that I no longer have contact with friends that I have made and contact with her side of the family.

Her parents don’t realize that she has been going down hill with the depression, she has been become quite adept at lying and deception. She has tried to make them believe that it is what I had done that made her decision to get a divorce, but I had been contemplating in leaving her and saying please get the divorce I cant stand being in this charade of a marriage because its more of a living arrangement to benefit her and only her. I feel hurt and abused emotionally and mentally, but the best thing that I can do is get the annulment from the church so that basically the marriage never truly was a marriage, but more of room mates living together she made it plain that we would literally never sleep in the same bed even after getting married, to me that isn’t a marriage at all. I tried to have her attend my side of the family functions but she made every attempt never to attend one function and if she did it was always that she became ill, I stopped making excuses for her and just said it laura what can I say. Her excuses were real flimsy at best but my family still welcomed her into the family no matter what.

It will soon be two months that I have been living on the road and the accusations by her have now started thank heavens I am not even in the same state as her, since we have separated I have been to our place to pick up my 3 suit cases, and garment bag, then to pick of some meds for my neck and therapy, and the final time to drop off a laptop that my oldest daughter will be picking up. and all three times I had called to inform her that i would be stopping by and to either pick stuff up or to drop something off, and I never stayed for more than 10 minutes at most. The further away from her I feel safer mentally and emotionally.

I have limited contact with her and she doesn’t know where I am at and I feel that it is in my best interest that she doesn’t know. I now wake up feeling that I have slept and not on edge the moment I wake because I never who I would wake up to each morning lately its been not the lady that I thought I had married but somebody else and a complete stranger filled with hatred because she wont accept responsibility for her actions, she always tries to make it so that she is and will always be the victim at all costs even if it means to do so will harm others.

Again i hope that her family recognizes the fact that the depression has gotten worse not better and that she needs a therapist that will see that she puts on a great act so that it will always be that she is the innocent bystander. I have my freedom by living on the road and no walking on egg shells for me an I feel relieved since then, I am calm not wondering what will set her off or that i have to be there for when she starts crying because of some alleged harm has befallen her. The relief is mind boggling to me, at first I thought that I wouldn’t know what to do, but I actually am relieved and I go for walks, work out, chat with normal people that I have to take care of emotionally. it feels like 500 lbs have fallen off my back.

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Depression ruins a Marriage

May 13, 2007

hydrangeas.jpgMy life has been turned upside down(her depression) by my wife of eight years for some reason she has felt that I have been trying to change her which if far from it, no matter what she wanted to do I supported her in what ever endeavour she wanted to try and what job she wanted to do, I fully supported her no matter what but no she has decided that she no longer wishes to married because she is not sure who she is and wants a divorce I have waited patiently for her to decide when she wanted to become intimate again in our marriage, the past 6 years I can count on one hand the times that we have had any type of an intimate relationship.

I have told her that I will always love her no matter what and will do what she wants even though I know in my heart that it is the wrong step to take, in order for me to survive and to remain sane I have taken a job in another state because being so close to the lady that I love will be quite hard for me to handle so i felt that it was necessary to live and work in a another state. I have talked with her parents they are saddened to hear of her decision and i explained to them that it was not my decision but hers alone and that if she does change her mind i would come back to her in a heart beat.

dried_hydrangeas.jpgThere are two sides to every story, and I would rather her family be there for her because she needs the help and love of her family at this time. I dearly love her family and have enjoyed the interaction with them when I have been able to be there, and the closeness that I felt while being married to my wife, and wish to stay in contact with them because they made me feel welcome into their family, especially her brother who lives in Chicago and his wife and two kids, along with her parents who also live in near Chicago as well. They encouraged me to call them mom and dad after both of my parents had passed away, I will love them dearly for the love they have shown me while being married to their daughter.

While being married to their daughter who has shown me how live and love again after I had built a wall to keep from being hurt again, she helped me greatly in raising my daughters long distance and making sure that we gave both daughters an option and a safe place when ever they wanted to come down and live with us.

My wife has a huge love of Hydrangeas and she had made it her flowers of choice for our wedding, I will never regret marrying her at all, I love her with all my heart and will remain faithful to her no matter what because she is my soul mate and she is my heart, when she told me she wanted a divorce it was if my heart had been ripped out of me.

This may seem to be ramblings that are not in order but for me to live each day to be so close but unable to change her mind which I will not do because I would never force her to change her mind even if it is the wrong decision, but it is the one she has made, I will respect her wishes no matter what. I would rather that her family be mad at me than at her because she needs the love and help that they can give her while she tries to discover who she is instead of trying be what everybody wants her to be. In our 8 years of marriage, I never once thought of another female because my wife was my life and my heart and most importantly my best friend.

To her friends please be there for her because she is really unable to do what is necessary to keep her life in order, I cherish the fact that her friends welcomed me into their circle as one of them without judging me at all. I will always cherish the times spent with them on holidays and other times as well.

To her friend who lives in California I saw you as her twin sister because you both thought alike which at times was quite funny at times because you both even sounded alike on the phone, I ask that you be there for her even if just on the phone to talk with her.

Like I said there are two sides for every story I will keep mine to myself because of the love that I have for my wife, I would rather be the villain so that her family and friends will be there for her as that is what she needs the most at this time in her life, so that she will find who she is. For those who wish to ask me, please be there for her, she needs the love and support right now. It hurts to much to be in the same state as she lives in right now, knowing that I am still married to her but she doesn’t wish to stay married it is tearing me up inside but I would rather have her friends and family focus on her because she desperately needs the love and support as she battles her demons that are inside her mind. Read my 2nd post titled Freedom